Sometimes life is such a whirlwind.
And sometimes you feel like your standing alone in a dessert with no oasis in sight other than the mirage of tempting water driving you to believe the image of something that was.
I’m writing this post not necessarily to be read but to say how I feel. To speak my mind on feelings left unsaid.
Let me get one thing straight. I’m not innocent. No one in a relationship is.
But I was done. I was done being used. Done being manipulated. Hurt. Fighting. Screaming. Done.
Yes, I’m the one that ended the relationship.
So I got this bracelet about 2 years ago, and it’s been lying in my house for ages. All but with the word on it – Contentment. What is it like to feel content? That has been my journey – leaning to love my own time again; being okay to just be with myself. And trust me, it’s hasn’t always been an easy road. I do miss companionship. I do miss love. I do miss not feeling alone.
But also not at the cost that I have paid over the last couple of years.
I am content.
And yes – I can tell you stories that will horify you about what I’ve endured. But I’m okay. And that is the way I would like to be.